Expansion on Random Thought

I wish I was more of an action taker than a dreamer, a lot more things would happen that way!

Hmmm, so that was how I ended my post last night. Guess it got quite a few people interested so I thought I might try to expand if possible. Lately I feel like I've been in a place, far, far, away (it's still in our galaxy though). I guess lately I've been putting a lot of thought into that thought. I've been thinking how most of my life I really haven't been a risk-taker. I've always been the quiet, little (most the time), shy boy. Only in the past year or so I really think I've stared to become more outgoing and started to outgrow that shyness. And I really hate this shyness, because like I said I dream, wish, and think a lot, but I never take initiative or action. And I guess that applies to anything or anyone if those could be categories. I mean really I have lots of regrets over decisions I made or never made in my life, just because I never take action, and it really sucks. I don't know, one of my friends was talking about how being an action taker is based on having self-confidence, well I have the self-confidence I just don't know what keeps me from taking action, in school, for college preparation, around school, with friends, and just in my life, period. But there have been so many situations in which I think about doing something about something or someone and just making a move to better my life, yet I just sit by and let the chance of a lifetime pass-by. Right now I feel I'm at one of those moments again and I've never really pondered how much of a dreamer I am instead of an action taker and it really bites. But then I realize it's within my power to change that (as well as to control the whole world, another story). It's just taking that initiative. I'd wanna say feelings have something to do with making my decisions, and that I hate feelings sometimes, but then again hating is a type of feeling, anyhow that was a little nice random thought too. I'm not really sure if I explained anything throughout all of this or whether I just created more questions and confused more people or who knows what. I don't really think this was the place to go deep on some thought, but oh well, I just had to talk about it for some reason and this just seemed the best place to do it at. Hopefully maybe you learned a little more about me if you read this far!!